while we were recording the podcast, Shane said - in jest - “Are you even trying to find a job?” And I totally bought it for a second.
I really believed that he meant it as an honest question, even though we’ve talked about my frustration in my job search at length AND the fact that I’ve heard this question from some of my friends and family and that it rips my heart out when I do.
It’s made me realize that I’m just not myself lately. I’m sensitive. I get irritated by things that never bothered me before. I’ve used the phrase “That’s not funny” and meant it. I know, right?
This last year of uncertainty has screwed with my sense of humor and my personality in a way that has the potential to eventually harm or change my friendships. I’ve decided that is simply not an option, so I will be working at getting back to being my old self again. Please be patient with me?
And yes, I’ll still be looking for a job while I’m doing it. GOSH!